Archive for March, 2009


I am always “up and runnin’ “! I keep practicing taking deep breaths so I don’t get overwhelmed with life and circumstances. My mantra is “you can only eat an elephant one bite at a time!” My elephant seems to be growing and not diminishing. However I was done work on Friday night and since then have started to defuzz my head. Today I teach Junior Church and the Teen Sunday School Class which I didn’t know until yesterday as a friend decided to visit her elderly mom in PEI. Tony commented this morning that I slept in as I never got out of bed until 7:30 but what he didn’t know was I was laying there sorting through my responsibilities and working things out. I do very well with my eyes closed and seem to be able to see the big picture much better at rest.

I have noted something that Kori mentioned lately and can see where it is a quality about me that can become a detriment if not taken in stride. I start several immediate projects at the same time and work on them all at once. If I am making lasagna I also may start bread while something is simmering, may have ran in and sprayed the bathroom with cleaner to let it soak awhile just before I started the sauce, have a list going on the counter for groceries, be listening to the radio for a que to call and be tiding the cup cupboard at the same time! It all gets accomplished but what a mess when it is at its optimum busy state! I found out it drives her insane as she is trying to tidy behind me. So this morning I practiced only doing a couple of things at once and will try to implement that at work. Another ADHD trait I think? One thing has changed from my youth however- I don’t start big projects unless I know I can finish them in a couple of days. Hence I don’t sew, knit or crochet at this time in my life.

Aaron- Tony’s hubby calls me the energizer bunny. But even that thing will wear down if it is around and going long enough. It is my mind that is going first as it seems so cluttered. Spring cleaning?

Lasagna cooks in the oven, laundry waits to be folded, I need to get our church clothes readied, find something for a snack for the Junior Church and and and…! Oh yeah…one thing at a time right?



I am done my evening job tomorrow. I think it really is time as I feel overwhelmed with much. I didn’t sleep exactly well last night and hopped out of bed to putter around the kitchen then tossed and turned for the remainder of the night.

After a year of being out of the loup Tim has slowly found his way back and I do believe he has a special “friend”. She initially introduced Tim and Kori and has cared for him forever. I asked him last night if she was a “friend” or a “girl friend” and he said a “friend, that’s alright isn’t it Mom?” I assured him it was as long as she wasn’t hoping “for more”. He informed me that unfortunately it is how it is and who says someday he won’t feel “more” for her? He appreciates that she knows him as he is and still accepts him unconditionally. Whatever it is- he is smiling these days!

Spring is in the air and although we had a big winter storm on Tuesday it is melting quickly. The weekend promises sunny and warm temps- I can handle that! Spring seems to come much quicker in other parts of the world than here…ya think?

To the Finish Line

So last evening I worked on the phones and one of the gals had to sit behind me as her computer was still in use for daytime staff. I am not quite sure what it was that I did but she found it quite typically Lou and I heard her say to the woman across from us “I am so going to miss her!!” The other woman agreed and made a point to tell me later that things aren’t ever going to be the same without me…I am really going to miss them too!

So after work Tony brought the other car to meet me while I was picking up groceries. After we left the coffee shop I sat down in the old jetta, rolled down the window and challenged him to a “race” home. My husband does not race but drives just under the speed limit. It was late and there are several different routes you can take. I figured I was racing against my own clock but still hurried things up a bit. Lo and behold when I came to the end of one of the streets I saw this jetta bombing by, Tony leaned back in his seat just poking the coals to her!! I couldn’t believe he was ahead of me! I giggled to myself thinking it may be interesting if we both got caught in a speed trap!

Out the road we headed and as there was no passing lane and he would not go over the speed limit I knew I had lost the race. What to do? About 1/2 mile from the house I pulled to the side of the road and turned the lights out on the car. I could see his brake lights come on and knew he was wondering if I had a problem. Yeah…he was ahead and I was using my last resort- damsel in distress!!

I waited a minute then headed home at a fair clip. I met him coming back to look for me, gave him a quick wave and sped into the finish line!

Out and about today and now going to have a bit of a rest…it has been a rough week with sick kids!

More time

…to wait on the rest of them…and maybe just maybe spend on here!!

Yeah…I resigned from the paper and am done two weeks from tomorrow…

so back to working Monday to Friday 7:30-5:30…and that isn’t even normal!

Last evening an antisocial dame sat behind me at the paper and she snorted and huffed because of having to. Today I saw her and said “there ya go…you are back in your own seat! admit it…you MISS me!!” She whispered, afraid someone just may hear her “I do…I really do!” I thot she was joking but saw the sincerity in her eyes, “you are one of the only people I would ever say that about!”  It is hard to not have fun when you are around me at a boring job place!! One gal says she wishes we had been in school together…she figures life would be interesting…to say the least?

Missing you all…how are you?

I am Ok…really!

A dear friend dropped me an email concerned about me…thanks for caring! I decided if he was worried then perhaps others are too.

I am ok…really! Yes I was in a bad place this week. One day after a storm I had to walk to work and that wasn’t an easy feat with the slippery country road we live on and the messy conditions. My feeling of being so alone in the battle I am in weighed heavy. I have the Lord and He is my rock and fortress but sometimes we need more physical visible support from those round about us.

The battle with Tim has been hard. He is doing fine but so discouraged with no work and no friends. His friends all drink and party and he cannot have that lifestyle. The young people in his age group from the church have moved away or are in Bible College.

The building I wanted for my daycare was perfect except the man responsible for renting it discouraged me from doing so- I don’t think he wants anyone from the Fire Marshal’s office nosing around.

K. was out sick all week and my operation is too big to do on my own so that exhausted me!

Yeah…I was in a bad place but I am not a person prone to depression- just discouraged. I am out of the bad place and feeling quite triumphant in my inner spirit…

Again…thanks for caring…

Some Times you Should take me Serious

I love shopping second hand. I found a green Disney costume- Tinkerbell for my kids. Yesterday as I stood rifling through the books at the second hand shop I found a full row of quality childrens’ books. A middle aged woman started at one end of the pile while I at the other. She chatted affably about the great selection of books. I commented here and there and noted her pull out three books and set them aside. “hmmm, these books shouldn’t be here. They are not meant for kids- “Pilates” and “Belly dancing”. I grinned at her and nodded affirmation. She spoke in lower tones “and “Cooking Naked”!” Without raising my head I said “now that could be dangerous!”

Thinking I meant the books being available to kids she said “yes…!” then realized I meant the danger lay in cooking naked and she stopped in midsentence, looked at me and started to laugh. The poor stranger laughed so loud that my husband across the store knit his eyebrows together and shook his head.

Cooking naked would be dangerous. I deep fried fish one day in a red negligee and the grease splattered and burned my stomach through the fine fabric! Imagine how much worse it would have been naked? I didn’t tell her that I was kinda experienced in that craft though. I figured she already wasn’t quite sure what to do with this stranger as she walked away and exclaimed “You are funny!!” I didn’t mean to be funny…cooking naked is dangerous!!nakedaprons_2023_446059

Personality Test- no surprises!

This is the “Jung” personality test. You can take it here

On another note- I need to start being fun again…loving to read some of the posts from others about shoes…and bras…tee-hee!

This explanation of “INFJ”  is me- to a “T”- sad…isn’t it?

Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
by Joe Butt Profile: INFJ
Revision: 3.01
Date of Revision: 6 Mar 2005

Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists — INFJs gravitate toward such a role — are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.

INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of ‘poetic justice’ is appealing to the INFJ.

“There’s something rotten in Denmark.” Accurately suspicious about others’ motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.

INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately.

Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.

Functional Analysis:

Introverted iNtuition

Introverted intuitives, INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and “live in the here and now” of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect. Their amazing ability to deduce the inner workings of the mind, will and emotions of others gives INFJs their reputation as prophets and seers. Unlike the confining, routinizing nature of introverted sensing, introverted intuition frees this type to act insightfully and spontaneously as unique solutions arise on an event by event basis.

Extraverted Feeling

Extraverted feeling, the auxiliary deciding function, expresses a range of emotion and opinions of, for and about people. INFJs, like many other FJ types, find themselves caught between the desire to express their wealth of feelings and moral conclusions about the actions and attitudes of others, and the awareness of the consequences of unbridled candor. Some vent the attending emotions in private, to trusted allies. Such confidants are chosen with care, for INFJs are well aware of the treachery that can reside in the hearts of mortals. This particular combination of introverted intuition and extraverted feeling provides INFJs with the raw material from which perceptive counselors are shaped.

Introverted Thinking

The INFJ’s thinking is introverted, turned toward the subject. Perhaps it is when the INFJ’s thinking function is operative that he is most aloof. A comrade might surmise that such detachment signals a disillusionment, that she has also been found lacking by the sardonic eye of this one who plumbs the depths of the human spirit. Experience suggests that such distancing is merely an indication that the seer is hard at work and focusing energy into this less efficient tertiary function.

Extraverted Sensing

INFJs are twice blessed with clarity of vision, both internal and external. Just as they possess inner vision which is drawn to the forms of the unconscious, they also have external sensing perception which readily takes hold of worldly objects. Sensing, however, is the weakest of the INFJ’s arsenal and the most vulnerable. INFJs, like their fellow intuitives, may be so absorbed in intuitive perceiving that they become oblivious to physical reality. The INFJ under stress may fall prey to various forms of immediate gratification. Awareness of extraverted sensing is probably the source of the “SP wannabe” side of INFJs. Many yearn to live spontaneously; it’s not uncommon for INFJ actors to take on an SP (often ESTP) role.